*deep breath*
So I have an interesting thing in my brain, I tend to link colors to things, people, emotions, sounds, etc. I am not quite sure what this is called but I can literally see or sense colors that are not actually there (no I am not tripping out all the time). Typically it is a sub-sense to my natural real senses and is something that I can chose to focus on or not. I think this sense is the reason I am so into art and color theories.
When I focus on the color of people it is often based on my interaction with them, their non-verbal signals and other various cues that I unconsciously pick up on. For example; The group of girls sitting across from me in the cafe I am hanging out at, are all very different. When I think about it and can focus and analyze the colors I am sensing I come to some interesting conclusions about myself. I feel a certain connection with the girl who seems to be resonating blues and greens, This comes from the way she is sitting and communicating with the other girls. She is less intense then the others who are various purples, reds and burnt orange. However there is a precision (sharp) and brightness to the greens she seems to project.
Then there is this couple that is always in the cafe when I am. I adore them which is to say I adore observing them because separately their colors are quiet subdued but when they come together to be close the colors change drastically and it makes me think, wow this is what love looks like. This couple unlike so many others that I observe from a day to day has really stuck out to me. I have seen each separately but it is when they are together that interests me. There seems to be this resonating in between them when they are casually sitting together talking. This line of connection that no matter how far they seem to be sitting it draws them closer. that line is an iridescent turquoise. that blends into a sort of indigo purple. When they get closer the colors get brighter and a few deep magenta's are present. The colors tend to have a pearled hint to them as they mix the closer they get. The whole color of their bodies changes as they get more and more engrossed with each other. This is not the bright fiery colors of passion or lust, I can tell when those colors spring up. This is a sort of relaxed compassion and interest. They are obviously very comfortable with each other. Neither show signs of disinterest or anxiety. At this point I stop seeing the people and start only seeing colors and sensing emotions that spring from them. Sometimes it is so overwhelming that I feel like I might cry. It is a beautiful dance of colors, shades and movement.
The problem with people like the above stated is that vibrant interesting colors tends to come with an awareness (as I try to remain as unassuming and inconspicuous as possible with my observations). I have been caught a couple times. (I'm such a creeper, or at least I must seem so. I promise my intent is not to weird anyone out but simply to observe). What would be creepy is if I were to walk up to them and ask if they would want to pose for some photo shoot (which I am seriously itching to do but cannot come up with a way to not sound like a creep). I do not think I could capture the "it" that I see.
Let's move on from me gawking at people to the subject of emotions. When I am in a particular mood or have a certain feeling I often find my world changing to certain shades of colors which can make it difficult for me to change my mood and as such I will attempt to surround myself with a color that represents a better mood. Also I will feel all out of sorts if the colors I am wearing do not accurately reflect the way I am feeling. ie; bright yellow jacket with sunflowers on it would not be appropriate for a day I am particularly dismal. The fact that colors are so intertwined with my life makes me rather easy to read once you know this. Typically you can tell by noticing how comfortable I feel in the clothes I am wearing will directly reflect how accurate the colors I am wearing are to my current mood state. HOWEVER knowing the code is important because my color-mood representations can be and often are different from what others would analyze. For instance, red is neither passion or aggression for me but often gives me a sense of caty-ness, trickery, flirtation without the intent of anything more. Sometimes red can be willpower, resolve, an important decision is to be made or has been made. I use the color red as an example because I rarely wear it (you can read into that however you would like). Again being able to read non-verbal cues is important because I could be wearing a red shirt that day and be very uncomfortable with that choice.
Another interesting connection with perception and color for me is the sense of touch. This produces what I have found to be the most intense and can often change how I perceive people. Often I can "sense" a specific color of someone but can be completely wrong or thrown off once I/ we touch. I think this is interesting because often I can close my eyes reach out my hand and touch someone and know who I touched from the color I get, though I can only do this if I have already focused on the color that appears when I touched them the first time. Like I stated before this is something that I need to be consciously focusing on to have a big impact.
To be continued...
